Sunday 31 January 2016

31/16 My Monologues & Musings : Mercy Incarnate at Cana ( 2:1-11)

31/16 My Monologues & Musings : Mercy Incarnate at Cana (Jn 2: 1-11)


“On the third day a wedding took place at Cana in Galilee. Jesus’ mother was there,  and Jesus and his disciples had also been invited to the wedding. 3 When the wine was gone, Jesus’ mother said to him, “They have no more wine.”
4 “Woman, why do you involve me?” Jesus replied. “My hour has not yet come.”
5 His mother said to the servants, “Do whatever he tells you.”
6 Nearby stood six stone water jars, the kind used by the Jews for ceremonial washing,b each holding from twenty to thirty gallons.
7 Jesus said to the servants, “Fill the jars with water”; so they filled them to the brim.
8 Then he told them, “Now draw some out and take it to the master of the banquet.”
They did so, 9 and the master of the banquet tasted the water that had been turned into wine. He did not realize where it had come from, though the servants who had drawn the water knew. Then he called the bridegroom aside 10 and said, “Everyone brings out the choice wine first and then the cheaper wine after the guests have had too much to drink; but you have saved the best till now.”
11 What Jesus did here in Cana of Galilee was the first of the signs through which he revealed his glory; and his disciples believed in him.”


Musings of Jesus…..
“Sure, a lot has been written, spoken, and preached about this Cana Event. There are a number of noble thoughts contained in the miracle of Cana such as:
-  the concern of my mother.
- her desire to bail out the family from a       very probable shame having not enough wine to be served  for the wedding guests.
- my unwillingness to get involved and bail out the host family in need by citing theological objection.
- her non-nagging attitude.
- her positive and optimistic waiting.
- the spontaneous appreciation of the chief steward.
- happiness of the bride and bridegroom
- the admiration of my disciples and their faith in me.
- etc.. ….. …
As a young male adult, my natural and initial impulse was to say no to the request of my mother. I didn't want to be dictated by her. It was a sort of natural rebellion against a possessive mother instinct.
So I flatly denied her request citing theology.
Then, again, purely on human level,
I thought for a moment :
Like any mother, my mother too might have wanted to flaunt me her son and parade my divine power by performing a miracle!
I resented instinctively.
So I said a flat no..  with arrogance I said so.
Then I had my second thoughts:
No ..no.. my mother is not the type who wants to show off..
She is very considerate type. .
She gets involved because of her genuine concern…
She couldn't imagine the host family and especially the bride and bridegroom having to be ashamed due to the lack of wine which was an essential ingredient for a Jewish Wedding.
That's the reason which prompted her to get involved in the situation and approached me hoping to do something even a miracle!
How noble is her concern!
She wants everyone to be as happy as possible!
Oh, my Mother,  you are great indeed!
You truly are a Merciful Mother!
Mother, you are amazing!
You never nagged me.. coming after me..repeating your request!  Great!
On the other hand you waited with sure hope that I will do something about it ..though I initially said an abrupt no.
She went told the helpers to do whatever I would tell them.
She was certain that I would do something  about the lack of wine.
Oh, Mother, you are super!
You, a sort of,  ‘taught’ me:
To be Merciful and
To be Compassionate,
Even at the expense of:
My theological “Hour”!
Thank you, Mother!”

Dear Jesus,
Thank you for your musings!
As we observe the Year of Mercy,
Your decision to perform the miracle at Cana stands out an example of Mercy!
You are indeed the Mercy Incarnate!
You didn't stay stubborn hanging on to your theology of “Hour.”
I love to keep on reminding myself of your willingness to reconsider decisions prompted by thoughts of Mercy!

Oh, Jesus, My Lord and My God,
I thank You,
I thank the Father,
I thank the Spirit,
For Your Unsolicited gift of life for me!
For Your Uncountable blessings for me!
For Your Unlimited Patience with me!
For Your Untold Forgiveness for me!
For Your Unflinching faith in me!
For Your Unfailing Hope in me!
For Your Unconditional Love of me!
Amen
JoAchen
Sunday, 31st January, 2016

These Reflections are neither pure scientific exegesis nor are they any highly theological explanations. They are a  sort of my devotional musings and monologues and a part of my journaling of the Prodigal Priest in me as I struggle to return to the Home of our Heavenly Father. As I keep holding you in my prayers and I request you to include me in yours. Thank you!


Saturday 30 January 2016

30 / 16 My Monologues & Musings : “My Pace I give you..(Jn l4: 27)

30/16 My Monologues & Musings : my Peace I give you.. (Jn 14:27)

“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.”

Dear Jesus,
I remember reading this verse as a teenager and a minor seminarian. I was very consoled and was very confident of having a very peace filled seminary and religous life and later on as a priest
I thought to myself:
i will have no big problems.
I thought to myself:
The stay with my congrgation and syudies in the semiary would be easy.
I thought to myself:
There would be no conflicts and no sufferings.
Even after forty plus years of priesthood
I am often tempted to wish so and expect that there shouldn't be any problems in my life as Jesus has gifted his Peace!
Dear Jesus,
In fact, your disciples had to face lots of problems even after receiving your Peace before your Death and after your Resurrection, Hadn't they?
So your Peace which you had gifted to your  disciples before your Death and after your Resurrection:
Does not mean absence of problems,
Does not mean absence of setbacks,
Does not mean absence of opposition, Does not mean absence of persecutions.
Dear Jesus,
Your gift of Peace especially after the Resurrection:
It means the absence of fear in their lives. it means the absence of crippling worries.  It means the absence of undue anxieties.
It means the experience of enduring faith.
It means the courage to face any problems.
It means joyful hope to live with problems
which defies any solutions, Right, Lord?
Dear Jesus,
Though your disciples were in neck deep  troubles, conflicts, confrontations, and  persecutions:
They did not give up but grew in faith.
They did not betray you but proclaimed!
They did not abandon you but defended!
They didn't scatter away but stuck together!
Dear Jesus,
Your Peace gave them the inner strength and firm faith to face all their woes in their everyday lives!
This is what I need and need it everyday.
I need your Peace to face my struggles.
Many of my fellow humans too need it.
Continue to gift us with your Peace!
Dear Jesus,
When you were born the angels joyfully  announced ‘Peace on Earth.’
And on the eve of your torturous death  and after your Resurrection you gifted  Peace to your disciples, Didn't You?

Dear Jesus,
I wish to,
I want to,
I will to,
Have the everyday experience of
Your Gift of Peace,
The Peace the angels announced and
The Peace you gave ad your parting Gift!

Oh, Jesus, My Lord and My God,
I thank You,
I thank the Father,
I thank the Spirit,
For Your Unsolicited gift of life for me!
For Your Uncountable blessings for me!
For Your Unlimited Patience with me!
For Your Untold Forgiveness for me!
For Your Unflinching faith in me!
For Your Unfailing Hope in me!
For Your Unconditional Love of me!
Amen
JoAchen
Saturday, 30th January, 2016

These Reflections are neither pure scientific exegesis nor are they any highly theological explanations. They are a part of my journaling of the Prodigal Priest in me as I struggle to return to the Home of our Heavenly Father. As I keep holding you in my prayers and I request you to include me in yours. Thank you!


Friday 29 January 2016

29/16 My Monologues & Musings : “Jerusalem, Jerusalem, you who kill the prophets and stone those sent to you, how often I have longed to gather your children together, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, and you were not willing.” (Mt 23:3, Lk 19:41)

29/16 My Monologues & Musings :  
“Jerusalem, Jerusalem, you who kill the prophets and stone those sent to you, how often I have longed to gather your children together, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, and you were not willing.”
(Mt 23:3, Lk 19:41)

37 “Jerusalem, Jerusalem, you who kill the prophets and stone those sent to you, how often I have longed to gather your children together, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, and you were not willing.”

Dear Jesus,
You wept over Jerusalem because the city and it's people were a symbol of tragedy of lost opportunities for growing up and coming closer to the Lord their God.
Dear Jesus, 
Haven't you been weeping over me too?
Doesn't my life make you weep as I have also willfully and otherwise missed the opportunities of growing up and closer to you and doing good for my fellow humans?
As I look at myself as a near seventy year old priest, pastor, teacher, confrere, and a fellow human being, 
I have deliberately or otherwise lost the opportunities of growing up and coming closer to you and to my fellow humans. 
This has saddened you and caused to weep over me, right?
You weep over me as I had promised much and accomplished little!
Many a times my life and actions have painfully disappointed you, Haven't I?
And a used you to weep.over me!

Dear Jesus, 
You weep for me because you love me. If you have have any love for you wouldn't weep over me, right?
It makes me weep having caused you to weep over me!
It also makes me weep out of the wonder and joy of knowing that you still love me!

Dear Jesus, 
I am resolved :
To have “a contrite spirit” for myself.
I am resolved :
To make you smile over me!
I am resolved :
To wear smile on my face and die!
And come into Your Presence!

Oh, Jesus, My Lord and My God, 
I thank You,
I thank the Father,
I thank the Spirit,
For Your Unsolicited gift of life for me! 
For Your Uncountable blessings for me! 
For Your Untold Forgiveness for me! 
For Your Unlimited Patience with me! 
For Your Unflinching faith in me! 
For Your Unfailing Hope in me! 
For Your Unconditional Love of me! 
Amen
JoAchen 
Joachenmonologues@gmail.com 
Friday, 29th January, 2016

These Reflections are neither pure scientific exegesis nor are they any highly theological explanations. They are a sort of devotional musings and monologues and a part of my journaling of the Prodigal Priest in me as I struggle to return to the Home of our Heavenly Father. As I keep holding you in my prayers and I request you to include me in yours. Thank you!

Thursday 28 January 2016

28/16 My Monologues & Musings : “ Behold! The Lamb of God “ ( Jn 1 : 35 - 42 )

28/16 My Monologues & Musings :  “Behold! The Lamb of God “(Jn 1 : 35-42)

“The next day John was again with two of his disciples. He saw Jesus walking by. John said, "Look! The Lamb of God!" The two disciples heard him say this. So they followed Jesus. Then Jesus turned around and saw them following. He asked, "What do you want?" They said, "Rabbi, where are you staying?" Rabbi means Teacher. "Come," he replied. "You will see." So they went and saw where he was staying. They spent the rest of the day with him. It was about four o'clock in the afternoon. Andrew was Simon Peter's brother. Andrew was one of the two disciples who heard what John had said. He had also followed Jesus. The first thing Andrew did was to find his brother Simon. He told him, "We have found the Messiah." Messiah means Christ. And he brought Simon to Jesus. Jesus looked at him and said, "You are Simon, son of John. You will be called Cephas." Cephas means Peter (or rock).”

Dear Jesus,
When your cousin John the Baptist saw you from afar he introduced you to his disciples using the very scripturally loaded and symbolic word, “the Lamb”, right?
Remember, Isaac of Old?
His father Abraham was ready and willing to offer his son Isaac as the sacrificial lamb. Ever since the Hebrews had a religious and  reverential attachment to lambs.
Dear Jesus,
As the scriptural pundits hold Isaac was only prefiguring you. Aren't they right?
How I wish to have a silent sacrificial attitude to my everyday problems!
Instead, I am used to be very grudging and grumpy even with my minimal daily inconveniences!
How meaningful it was when John the Baptist introduced you as:
“Behold! the Lamb of God.”!
Dear Jesus,
Ever since the first Passover on the eve of Exodus, the Passover Lamb had become the ever living memorial for Promised Land.
Dear Jesus,
You are our Paschal Lamb who was sacrificed on the Cross to free us from tge slavery of evil and of sinful habits.
How I wish I had the mentality of Passover Lamb willing to sacrifice my over blown ego in my daily life!
Dear Jesus,
You are also our Scapegoat Lamb.
You are the Scapegoat Lamb on whom all the sins of humanity are willingly and joyfully taken upon yourself and died on the Cross.
When John the Baptist pointed you out and said, “Look the Lamb of God”, it is this Scapegoat image and symbolism that he had on mind.
Thank you, Jesus for being the Scapegoat Lamb for the whole humanity myself included!
But the irony is I have this tendency to make others the Scapegoat Lamb for my failures!
I want to go scott free!
On the other hand,
when I am made a scapegoat
I fret and fume!
I keep shouting: it is unjust! ..
I don't deserve it..
I am being exploited…

Dear Jesus,
How did you feel being a Scapegoat Lamb?
Did you initially resent it?
Something like the agonizing hours you  went through in Gethsemani.
Any how, finally you did willingly and happily accept it, right?

Dear Jesus,  
My problem is that it is OK for me:
To take the blame and become:
The scapegoat lamb for those whom I love...
The scapegoat lamb for who help me..

But I don't feel like:
To be scapegoat lamb for those whom I don't like.
To be the scapegoat lamb who have have hurt me.
To be the scapegoat lamb for those ungrateful ones.
Dear Jesus,
In your case, you deliberately became the Scapegoat Lamb precisely for those who hurt you and abandon you, right?
I am one of such persons who keeps hurting you.
Yet you became the Scapegoat Lamb for me!
It is your Unconditional Love which urges you to be the Scapegoat Lamb for me.
Can I ever be grateful enough to you?
How I wish to a scapegoat lamb not only for those whom I like but also for those who hurt me and don't  like me!
I guess:
By becoming a scapegoat lamb for others is the best way to express my gratitude to you!
In my own little ways I shall and I will try hard to be a scapegoat for others.

Dear Jesus,
I thankYou,
I thank the Father,
I thank the Spirit,
For Your Unsolicited gift of life for me!
For Your Uncountable blessings for me!
For Your Untold Forgiveness for me!
For Your Unlimited Patience with me!
For Your Unflinching faith in me!
For Your Unfailing Hope in me!
For Your Unconditional Love of me!
Amen
JoAchen
Thursday, 28th January, 2016
These Reflections are neither pure scientific exegesis nor are they any highly theological explanations. They are a sort of devotional musings and monologues and a part of my journaling of the Prodigal Priest in me as I struggle to return to the Home of our Heavenly Father. As I keep holding you in my prayers and I request you to include me in yours. Thank you!



Wednesday 27 January 2016

27/16 My Monologues & Musings : For Shepherds (Jn 10::1-6)

27/16 My Monologues & Musings : “Very truly I tell you Pharisees, anyone who does not enter the sheep pen by the gate, but climbs in by some other way, is a thief and a robber.”

(Jn 10 :1-6)
“Very truly I tell you Pharisees, anyone who does not enter the sheep pen by the gate, but climbs in by some other way, is a thief and a robber. 2 The one who enters by the gate is the shepherd of the sheep. 3 The gatekeeper opens the gate for him, and the sheep listen to his voice. He calls his own sheep by name and leads them out. 4 When he has brought out all his own, he goes on ahead of them, and his sheep follow him because they know his voice. 5 But they will never follow a stranger; in fact, they will run away from him because they do not recognize a stranger’s voice.” 6 Jesus used this figure of speech, but the Pharisees did not understand what he was telling them.”

Dear Jesus,
You compared the leadership of the Pharisees as those who avoid the front door or gate of the sheep-pen through which the real genuine shepherds enter  and lead into it for the night and lead them out in the morning. Only thieves and robbers avoid the front door and sneak in through devious ways. The false shepherds sneak in to steal and to rob the sheep. They are thieves and robbers who approach the sheep not to protect them but to steal them.

Dear Jesus,
I thank all those shepherds in my life:
Starting with You, the Good Shepherd.
Then there are other shepherds :
who are my parents and grandparents, siblings and other members of the family, the teachers, priests, friends and well wishers.
All of them loved me.
They cared for me.
They protected me.
They guided me.
They encouraged me.
They forgave me.

Dear Jesus,
I am ever grateful to You!
And to them!

Dear Jesus,
As you know I too have been a shepherd to many:
As a priest,
As a pastor,
As a teacher and a friend.
But I wonder :
Whether I have been a good shepherd to them.
Sometimes, Yes.
I have been a good shepherd to them.
I am glad about it.
But many a times I have sneaked in the garb of a shepherd:
To steal them and to rob them,
To exploit them and to lead them astray through my evil ways.
I am sorry, Lord:
For being a thief, a robber,
And for being a false shepherd.
May I lead them astray no more!

Dear Jesus,
As a priest and as a pastor, i guess, I have been an above average shepherd.
Yet many a times the motive behind my shepherding was selfish.
It was often:
to make a name for myself!
to stay in the limelight!
to steal the show!
to rob all the credit!
to get praise and applause!
That's me, at times!

Dear Jesus,
Yet all the while you have been very patiently shepherding me, right?
Thank you, Jesus, my Good Shepherd!

Oh, Jesus, My Lord and My God,
I thank You,
I thank the Father,
I thank the Spirit,
For Your Unsolicited gift of life for me!
For Your Uncountable blessings for me!
For Your Unlimited Patience with me!
For Your Untold Forgiveness for me!
For Your Unflinching faith in me!
For Your Unfailing Hope in me!
For Your Unconditional Love of me!
Amen
JoAchen
Wednesday, 27th January, 2016

These Reflections are neither pure scientific exegesis nor are they any highly theological explanations. They are a sort of devotional musings and monologues mainly meant for my personal renewal and spiritual growth. They are a part of my journaling of the Prodigal Priest in me as I struggle to return to the Home of our Heavenly Father. As I keep holding you in my prayers and I request you to include me in yours. Thank you! 

Tuesday 26 January 2016

26/16 My Monologues & Musings : “Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me.” (Mt 16 :24)

26/16 My Monologues & Musings :
“Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me.” (Mt 16 :24)

Dear Jesus,
You are very outspoken with your views!
You are very upfront with your conditions.
To follow you is not an easy cake walk!
Rather it is a tough walk with the cross!

Dear Jesus,
You don't force me to follow you.
For that matter,
You don't force anyone to follow you.
I am free to choose to be your disciple.

Dear Jesus,
Though I want to follow you, the problem with me is that I don't like the condition you have placed.
I don't wish to carry my cross.
I am more than happy and I love to follow you provided you eliminate my those crosses I have to carry.
That's what I wish, want, pray.

Dear Jesus,
I am like the many who wanted to follow you
Dreaming it to be easy and cosy.
Often it is the case that i want to follow you
Because i think of you as a miracle worker!

Dear Jesus,
I often wanted to follow you as a boy
Because I thought you would help me
to do well at school and get good grades
Which happened many a times!

Dear Jesus,
I often wanted to follow you
Because when I prayed to you
While I was sick and suffering
You healed me, though with medical help.

Dear Jesus,
Often it is the case that i wish to follow you,
Because I want you to make life
easy and hassle free,
happy and worry free.

Dear Jesus,
Whenever I am faced with an emergency,  Whenever i have a serious problem,
I come running to you,
I kneel, i prostrate, i throw up my hands.
I pray with my eyes filled with tears,
I pray with a choking voice,
I beseech you,
Even I lay a sort of siege around you,
I do all these to get my petition sanctioned,
My prayers heard or my problem solved!
Once I get prayers answered,
Sure I come to thank you profusely!
Then it's all over!
I am back to my normal lukewarm ways.
I don't feel the need to pray to you.
And if at all I pray,
It would be a routine exercise!
That's it, that's often me!
Remember, I no ordinary lay person,
I am priest, a senior priest!
It will take yet another problem or emergency for me to come to you
Once again with fervent  prayers!

Dear Jesus,
When will i learn to pay heed
To the conditions you have placed
that I should take up my cross and only then can I follow you.

Dear Jesus,
It means:
I should face my cross of everyday life,
With all its worries and weariness,
With all its pains and problems,
With all its setbacks and sadness,
With all its hurts and hurdles.
With all its joy and happiness,
With all its success and thrills.

Dear Jesus,
I know it in my head
That i should take up my cross.
But I feel it in my heart
That I dislike to carry my cross.

Dear Jesus,
This is an everyday struggle
A daily routine of life.
To dislike the cross of pain
To like the crown of pleasure.

Dear Jesus,
Despite my natural dislike of the cross
Everyday I want gladly carry it.
Because I want follow you,
As you love me unconditionally
Despite my brokenness and weaknesses!

Oh, Jesus, My Lord and My God,
I thank You,
I thank the Father,
I thank the Spirit,
For
Your :
Unsolicited gift of life for me!
Uncountable blessings for me!
UnlimitedPatience with me!
Untold Forgiveness for me!
Unflinching faith in me!
Unfailing Hope in me!
Unconditional Love of me!
Amen
JoAchen
Tuesday, 26th January, 2016

These Reflections are neither pure scientific exegesis nor are they any highly theological explanations. They are a sort of devotional musings and monologues and a part of my journaling of the Prodigal Priest in me as I struggle to return to the Home of our Heavenly Father. As I keep holding you in my prayers and I request you to include me in yours. Thank you.